Introduction: I used to be the girl who spent all my time asking myself if I was just inherently lazy. Wondering if there was something wrong with me. Wishing I could just develop positive habits and stick to them. But I could never stay consistent long enough to develop a routine. I could never seem to make myself just do the stuff I knew was good for me EVEN when I wanted to AND I enjoyed it. At some point I always found myself resisting the schedules, not feeling motivated, rebelling against the expectation. I found this permeated into everything I did. I would read a self-help book and get excited about something. I would get started and feel so positive about my new schedule or habit. But as surely as th sun rises, I would quit or get distracted by the next big idea. This negative cycle ended up making me feel like a constant failure. I had no self-worth, no self-confidence, and no self-love. I felt endlessly frustrated and hopeless about myself. It wasn't until I started really delving into finding out who I am and why I am the way that I am, that I began to make progress. I started picking apart my tendencies and reading about them. That developed into a pattern of self-acceptance that inspired me-I knew I was onto something. Eventually, I started noticing that I could hack my own brain-trick it into doing what I wanted just like our parents used to do! This got me insanely curious about neuro-linguistic programming (fancy term for brain hacking with words), I decided to get my Life Coaching Certification in Neuro-Linguistic Programming, which fascinates me to no end. After learning how to combine it with defined tendencies, I was finally able to create habits with strategies I could stick to! Then I went and got my Personal Training Certification so I could know the science behind getting people to their health and wellness goals. Now, it's what I do for a living, and I know in my heart of hearts it's what I'm meant to do. Not to get super emotional or anything, but I don't think anyone should have to go through the way I felt. Depressed, anxious, hopeless, stupid, lazy, flakey, fraud, negative, ugly, chaotic, undisciplined-these were all things I told myself daily, and that is NOT living a life. That's the ghost of one and no one deserves a phantom life. And the funny thing is, I found that most often, it stems from not having someone help you learn about your nature. defining and naming innate things about yourself holds tremendous power when it comes to making positive change. In short, you have to know who you are to create who you want to be. And I will be passionate about helping people do that for the rest of my life.
