I have 'enjoyed' many years of individual, marital and group counseling with a variety of practitioners who offered me a range of treatment modalities and psychological perspectives. I am a clinical psychologist myself, and have accumulated untold hours engaged in intellectual sparring matches with my counsellors. This was perhaps gratifying to all, but it was not as helpful to me as I had hoped. Over the years, I continued to steamroll my way through each day, and used only two tools - anger and resentment - to fuel my efforts. I became increasingly exhausted and chronically ill and sought guidance from legions of experts from the world of allopathy. (I currently define allopathy as the Science of Deficiency. Specifically, after grueling inquiry, the underlying/overlaying/veiled/ or overt deficiency is brilliantly discovered in an "aha" moment (viz House episodes). In my experience, that deficiency usually resided within or on me or my significant other. Once identified, the deficiency receives allopathic attack with a decisive, elegantly simple, goal-oriented, targeted and, once again, brilliant treatment plan. The allopathic treatment plan is formulated around incrementally more difficult or painful or expensive activities that ultimately fix, extract, reprimand, retrain, restrain or medicate the deficiency toward its extinction. Sadly, despite the dazzling brilliance allopathy, my physical health continued to deteriorate and I was frequently hospitalized. I felt spiritually empty, worthy only of self-doubt and self-reproach, afraid, abandoned, distrustful of the universe and all its inhabitants and utterly victimized. What was wrong with me??? I failed the dazzling brilliance of allopathy. Perhaps my deficiency was not correctly identified? Or I didn't try hard enough to fix it? Or my deficiency is so deep that it is unfixable? In this swirling haze of suffering I somehow was led to Dr. Maggi Quinlan. I can't remember how. What is important is that I was somehow offered a remarkable gift in the form of Maggi Quinlan, I am deeply grateful to and for her. My body, spirit, senses, energy and relatedness and relationships to myself, family and world are healing and transforming under Maggi's guidance. But here's the thing: Maggi doesn't identify or diagnose or expunge or treat anything! Here's another mystery: my mind is coming along for the ride (not running the show) and I am noticing improvement in all parts of my life. I attribute this miracle to Maggi's gentle, loving and inspired wisdom, unwavering integrity, irreverant humor, Mother Earth hugs, willingness to appropriately self disclose, deep connection to Divine Spirit, unconditional love, and profound dedication to healing and teaching. Gratitude, joy, creativity, relaxation, loving appreciation of myself and others, quiet reflection, grace - these are still not entirely familiar sentiments for me. But they have begun to visit me. I am learning to recognize their presence and I sometimes remember to invite them to linger a while.